||[Apr. 14th, 2009|03:38 pm]
Man i can't help but feel my boyfriend is doing the oh so typical "be cold hearted & mean to your girlfriend in order for HER to break up with you" routine =/|
I don't know why he can't just man up and talk to me or just break it off if i'm not what he wants.
Our communication is DEAD and we've just begun. Everything's about him bitching about work and talking about his band, & also him prying at me to get a job, when that's exactly what i'm trying to do! The economy is so fucked that it's really hard and seems that NO ONE is fucking hiring. Throw me a bone damn it!
At least i'm going to school for the most part..can't say the same for him..but am i judging?
Nope. I just need to feel loved and supported. Not ridiculed and looked down apon.
It's killing me, i love him sooo much but don't think he feels the same.
Isn't it sad that i'm afraid to bring up any kind of heart felt or serious conversation with my own man?
It always ends up with him not feeling like talking about that kind of thing..or him yelling at me and telling me i'm going to put him in a bad mood. That's not fair cause i'm always in a bad mood cause of him.
He's acting like he's SOO important cause he has a band and works in a factory folding paper 0_o
If you love someone you can make time..no matter what, no matter how "busy" you think you are, talking doesnt take much effort. At all.
I guess he quite frankly just don't give a flying shit!
To top it off my self esteem has gone to the gutter.
BUT i'm working on it, i'm trying to meet more cool chicks to talk to so i'm not surrounded by chouvinest pigs 24/7.
I'm sick of the compliments and being called "so hot!" that doesnt make me feel better and it's not going to get you in my pant's pal!
GIVE ME A BREAK!